I’ve not been feeling my best this last week; in a bit of a mental funk. I made a Hello World episode earlier this week on depression, and I think I’m in a shallow pit labelled “sad feels” right now.
I’m sure one of the things adding to my list of “sad feels” right now is a bit of exhaustion on my current projects. Monster Loves You, Depth Charge, and my secret project are all long-form projects that have been going on for most of the year. It’s easy to just get tired of everything, especially when projects move away from early “innovation” phases and onto maintenance, bug-fixing, and dreaded iterative UI improvements.
Of course, that’s not the only thing bringing me down, but it’s the easiest one for me to tackle right now. Starting a new project and taking on new challenges – that’s what starts “turning my crank” and gets me excited about things. And it happens to be the start of November. The start of NaNoWriMo, the National Novel Writing Month. I decided to take it up!
I haven’t written anything of this scope (beyond, say, the size of a blog post) since high school, where I had a half-finished, failed set of two novels.
I got together with a few friends and ran a random-sentence generator to lay out our starting plots. I have to write 50,000 words this month, which means about 1600 words today. So far I’m ahead of schedule (3700 words!), and I’m busy converting my story into a hard(ish) science-fiction tale of time travel, disaster, and inside jokes about Doctor Who and indie game developers.
In this day and age of quick blog posts and twitter conversations, I’m often left editing my ideas *down*. It’s really strange to see myself trying to fluff up paragraphs, expand on concepts, and build larger narrative arcs than “I woke up and stubbed my toe!”
It’s day three, and my spirits are already lifted!